Sometimes Jesus just stirs up your soul and your heart.
Listen to Him.
So as most of you know, I am “patiently” awaiting a call from CSM about this summer. I had a moment a couple weeks ago where I did the whole “I’m not qualified for this.” “What if I fail?” “Am I spiritually strong enough to lead youth and connect with the city for a whole summer…no I’m not. What if they don’t take me b/c I’m too weak”
And then…God stirred my soul. He reminded me that no I’m not strong enough, but He is and if I will just be faithful and depend on Him I will be ok. He reminded me of why I want and feel like I’m supposed to have this job. He reminded me that people can change. He had me read the story of Saul’s conversion and see it in new powerful ways. (which will prob. be it’s own post). He broke my heart for those struggling with homelessness again.
Then, I read this. And my hands got that little shake to it when you don’t know what to do but your heart is going crazy. Who ever thought I would want to spend my summer with homeless families and at risk communities?
For one of my PR classes we have “community partners” who we do free work for like designing brochures or media kits or volunteer training manuals. Really we do whatever they need that could be consider PR work. Our community partner is the local Food Harvest…a food distributor. They are the ones who send foods to food pantries and soup kitchens and other local agencies as well as host their own programs. We went on a tour of the facilities and the other day and it was like my heart felt a peace. A brokeness but a peace. I want to be serving in those places and raising up a generation that understands service and how to really help people. I want to learn how to really help people. We all struggle in one way or another. Some, like the homeless and poor, just struggle in a more visible, tangible way.
It also reminded me how EASY it is to help. Honestly, so easy. I know everyone seems to be hurting or afraid that they will be hurting financial soon. However, local food pantries send out food as fast as they get it because so many families are in need right now. At one of the schools here in town (i can’t remember the technical name) but 95% of its students are on the free or discounted lunch program. And how do those kids eat on the weekends. Backpack programs through places like the Food Harvest or food pantries. YOU CAN HELP. Just start by going to your pantry and pulling the items that you have two or more of that have been in the pantry for over a month. Put it in a box and donate it to the local food pantry. You have more than 2 and haven’t used it in a month, will you miss it more than they will this month?
I really want this job. Jesus is stirring my spirit to do more than sit here and write empty blogs about giving food from a pantry I don’t have and reading about how to create online help systems.