If ya’ll have been around this blog for any length of time you know my heart fell in love with Nashville in 2009.
The people I met there still frequent my mind. They still affect the way I live my life. The friends I made there are still valuable to me. Their opinions and wisdom are a blessing.
For a LONG time after coming home from Nashville all I wanted to do was go back.
Don’t get me wrong, I love my family and friends and people I work with here but my heart hurt to go back to Nashville….and so far I have avoided it.
To be honest with you I have been scared to go back. Scared of what I will feel. Scared I won’t be able to leave. Scared I will cry the whole time (actually pretty sure I will cry the whole time) Scared.
I am finally in a place in my “Springfield life” where I think I could go visit Nashville and not feel broken…granted I will still cry….but I think I could go and come back without feel broken.
A part of my heart will always be in Nashville; I still have a desire to go back; but I don’t feel broken or lacking anymore because I am here not there.
God is teaching me that I can plan/guess/desire all the steps and paths I want for my life but ultimately I MUST let Him guide me. I have to let him time that. It’s not that my “steps” are wrong or bad but the timing is off.
In his heart a man plans his course,
but the LORD determines his steps.
Thankful that God is molding me into a better leader by teaching me to follow Him.