The other night I felt like I was giving birth – I’m only going by what I’m told. I have never experienced the pain of childbirth in real life.
All I know is it was totally unfair! My lifelong friend Rachael was in actual birth while I was in kidney stone birth. She got a 7.7 pound tiny human who is beautiful. I got Charles Kid Stone, in 3 pieces, approximately 3 mm.
I’m not good at resting. I’m not good at saying no. I’m not good at putting on hospital gowns. I’m not good at straining my pee. I’m not good at letting go.
But that’s exactly what I did on Tuesday. I threw in the towel, put on the hospital gown, strained my pee, rested, said no and laid on the couch.
I could have done all this better. I still have lots of improvement to make but I took Tuesday as my reminder to slow down and let God call some shots. Too often I get caught up in the rhythm of being busy that I stop resting and just listening. I start calling my own shots and things get messy.
So as much as I do NOT enjoy giving birth to anything with kid and stone in the name, I enjoyed the time with my momma, the time to rest and the painful reminder that I’m not in control……and the fact that little Charlotte Lynn is gorgeous and here!